If you caught my other "update" post, you'll things have been a little crazy in my life recently. Crazy like graduating with my Esthetics license. Crazy like applying, interviewing, and getting a job that I really (read REALLY) wanted. Crazy like packing up my life, trying to find a place to live in a city 4 hours away, and moving, all within a month.
It's been stressful to say the least. And with all of these crazy changes and my life suddenly moving at mach 20, I've found myself doing things and watching things I used to love back in college. You could say they're like secruity blankets. Mindless activities that take away the craziness of the world and make everything less scary, less complicated and make adult life bearable.
My Netflix is getting a run for it's money.
I'm sitting in my room in my parent's house, the room I'll be vacating and moving 4 hours from in 2 days, and I feel like a freshman all over again. Except I don't think I was this terrified when I was 18 and going to college.
Here I am 24 years old, moving out of her parent's house for the second time, getting my first ever "big-girl" job, living on my own, paying bills with no financial aid support and I am terrified.
Terrified I'm going to screw up.
Terrified I'm going to fail at my new job.
Terrified that I won't be able to make my bills.
Terrified of being so far away from my parents. Again.
I guess these feelings I'm having are just a point of growing up, right? Well that's all fine in theory...in the mean time, I'll just binge watch Tennant Doctor Who, snuggle my kitty and read fan fic. Maybe the world will get less scary after a bit?